Dissatisfied

Today, on the third day of dealing with a software company on upgrade issues on a specialized piece of software, I just about lost it. I was fuming. After it became apparent that they were not going to be able to fix the problem again, I left the location where i was at, went to our office, dug out my laptop and wrote an e-mail to the owner and President of the company. I was dissatisfied, I was unhappy, I was ready for something to change.

I am dissatisfied with my spiritual life. I don't study my Bible as much as I should. I don't pray as much as I should. I have not brought my children up and fully taught them what they should have been taught when they were younger - I left them to fend spiritually for themselves, with just my poor example. I sometimes look at my spiritual life and say to myself; " Is this it, is this how it was meant to be?" There are things that God has told me to do that aren't going like I think they should go. I want to say; "Come on God, you have told me and others to do this. Show us what to do."

There is a current of dissatisfaction - I know God made us for more than this. You have something you want me to do. It is almost like a hunger - a knawing in the gut that prompts me to not be satisfied with the ordinary. I am prompted to write out these thoughts I have, almost like a mental vomit that must be released.

It is coming......................................................................